I'm a smoker and former drinker. Pretty familiar with addictions... Wondering if I have a new one creeping in.
I work this boat pretty much 7 days a week without break. I was tired after OCWMO and wanted to take a break for maybe a day but a sick engine kept me hopping all week.
During the week I kept pace with my other normal duties and projects. Today was gonna be a day off. By 10:AM I was beside myself. Hell, I even started shaking. "Oh relax Deep the boats just fine and you need a break..."... Didn't work. I was in full on withdrawl. "Oh one little quick project will make me feel better..."
BS! I dove head long into a string of projects most of which didn't need doing. Just felt compelled to work. Despite the heat I couldn't stop even though I tried to tell my self to. My Dad was a workaholic... His retirement from fortune 500 CEO position lasted I think two weeks before he caved in and became director at NASCAR... Wondering if there is such a thing as "work addiction" or if its just conditioning or perhaps a "habit" that is so deeply engrained that getting away from it is tough?
Was weird though.. Hell a lot of days I get a slow start and mosey into work as I damn well please. The second I said to my self that it was a day off I found myself feeling really whacked. I see it in smoking. Sometimes I go hours naturally without a smoke with no issue. If I try to hold back the cravings go insane and when I do break down I over compensate... Kind of like today...
None of what I did needed doing... Taking all the tackle out of a box then putting it back in serves no purpose especially when I can plainly see whats in there without taking it out... Oh well... worse addictions to have I guess...
you need to pick the skirts for your special..PB Plunger, on the site at Marlin Machines Holo..click on the skirts and the pic will blow up..just pic an outer and inner by letter.
that's not work..
so I can send it up
Last edited by canyongear; 08-15-2009 at 06:05 PM.
Believe it or not ... I just got back from going to work on the boat again. Batteries are a touch tired so I went to get model number. Decided to get some info off the charger as the 24 v system is starting to act like the 12v system was. Think I need a capacitor for the 24 system. So that creates new projects that direction. Hell while I'm there I can add tie wraps to a couple hanging wires. Oh a spot of grease. Time to clean. Now that its clean how about some paint. Now that ain't matching lets do whole area. Now that area looks better than surrounding area. Lets do more...
I'm goin nuts...
Tim
I'll pick a couple skirts. Then have to go talk to the fishing pole thats gonna drag it... I need to appologize to it for the abuse its gonna get in advance...
I wouldn't worry too much Deep, I'm the same way with my boat and if I had your job id be the same exact way, I can't stand sitting around doing nothing, I always want to be doing something, especially dealing with boats.
Nah my biggest beast that owned me is way behind me. I'm smart enough to never say never but that one is not on the radar. Could be that I almost ready to attack smoking...
That one I guess I gotta do like I did drinking. Cold turkey... The difference is though that in the times I have tried quitting smoking before I find my self going psychotic if not violent when a day or so in. I'm sure it carries further so when I do go for it I need to be camping or away from people at least for a few days so I don't just do something stupid. My last time I triedto quit I tore up a bunch of furniture and a tv for no reason. Before that went through every bill and statement and tax thing from the last ten years and screamed uncontrolably for hours on end... Might need a rubber room...
This boat owns me. All my boats have but this one drags me in deeper where I can't fathom not doing something all the time...
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